Random Writings of Cowgirl

Hello my dears. It has been too long. This week was very chaotic to be honest. I had meetings on Tuesday and Thursday and also there was a show at the school that I had to take pictures of. Also on Monday I had a photo shoot thing before school at #3's school. Recently, my friends are all becoming very dramatic. It is highly stressful for me, as I often care very deeply for my friends.  I am sure that you understand. Monster as you all know has lost my trust and she is kind of driving me crazy. I do not know what she wants. So finally I blew up on her. I told her that I was sick of hearing everything she says because it is all negative. Oddly, she seemed pleased that I lost my temper. What she doesn't know is that I actually had other things on my mind and she just wasn't helping. Whatever though, I will let her have the pleasure of thinking she is the sole reason of my top blowing. *shrug* Yesterday was Mother's Day. Which is awesome. I think the plan was to chill and...

Hello people. I am in kind of a mood today. (Not an angry one, more depressed.) You see, I have these friends. One exaggerates the truth and gets himself into trouble. (Like seriously I think he disowned his family and they him among other things.) And this other friend who is just so filled with a burning anger and lack of love that she is left with no faith in humanity. {What about faith in God?} No. None of that either. She hates Him. She always tells me these stories from her past and finally I have reached that point where I just do not believe a word she says. I used to believe her with a hint of skepticism but now this is getting out of hand. My trust began the downward spiral draining away when she flat out lied to our math teacher. Now all I hear are flat out lies and half truths. I told her that I don't trust her and she replied sharply with, "Why do you talk to me then?" I had no good answer, but you really don't have to trust someone to talk to them so i...

Hello my dears. I hope that you are well. I am alright, super hungry though. Today is uniform day because we have the award ceremony for ROTC tonight. Last uniform day of the semester!!! So so happy about that. I am tryna remember what happened since I last wrote.... OOH. Okay, so as you know, I took the SAT. That was grueling. Blek. Hopefully I did amazing. On Saturday my neighborhood had a giant yard sale day. In case you don't know, I love yard sales. I love looking through peoples junk and then getting good deals. So obviously I was walking around the neighborhood ALL DAY LONG. (From like 8 until 1:30) It was so fun. My friend Erika (she is a grown up.) (She reads my blog I think. Hi Erika.) somehow managed to get me to buy her Elsa costume that she made out of a prom dress. (I was looking for costume pieces anyway.) I also bought two brooches and a trunk full of belts and one scarf. $11. I should have bartered some more, but I was really exhausted. After walking around all da...

Hello my dears! It has been sooooo long. My apologies. We did not go into the computer lab last week because we had a sub. Great news, at youth group last night two people got saved. I think one of them was my friend which makes it that much more special. The pure excitement and joy rushing through my veins was an exhilarating feeling so explainable.I wanted jump and shout and hug, but naturally I remained still. I do not know if anyone was quite as excited as I was at that moment, but that is alright. If it was my friend that got saved, and I am sure he did, it hits me hard where I have been weak. God pulled him outta my school, just another cold hearted atheist. He was directed toward our church by a basketball hoop as an escape. Then BAM. Like a lightning bolt, the King struck, piercing the darkness as sharply as a blade pierces flesh during medieval warfare. Other than that, my week has been relatively mild. On Friday there may have been some freshman doing some suspicious activ...

Hello. So over the weekend I realized *cough cough* mom told me that LARPers mostly consist of drug addicts, drunkards, witches and warlocks. (She has known people who LARP.) So I have decided to not try the game with those kind of people...Witchcraft is a form of Satan worship herego, Witches/Warlocks are not safe companions. They are infested with demons. This does not mean that I will completely quit dressing up at times and living for a quick moment or seven in my imagination. I may just, in the future, when I live in a castle, have "Medieval day" every once in a while. It could be educational opportunity. Who knows. Until then, my imaginary people will have to be contained in my books. Maybe I will just dress as my characters when I am writing. Maybe I should be a writer when I am grown. I feel that Luthein and Celeste (Her half sister) have a story that needs to be written. I didn't tell you about Celeste. I have some secrets. Over the weekend I finally watched W...

Hello my dears. So as you may know, I am slightly nerdy. Also, as this may or may not be normal, I have one of two reactions to stress. I either A) Begin to work harder and harder or B) I get super strange and cooky. As this school year is drawing to a close I am leaning toward the second, more fun sounding option. (I am blaming stress) Ever heard the word "LARP"? It stands for Live Action Role Play. It is a really nerdy pass time for people who like to dress up and hit each other with swords. It is basically pretend for grown ups. Recently I have become very interested in the sport. It started one day when I just wanted to dress up as a wood elf... Since then I have been doing a lot of research on the topic. Turns out the majority of LARPers are smart professional people in real life. People like doctors, college professors and military men/women. I have also learned that LARP is highly recommended by therapists to help with issues such as anxiety. In light of that informat...

Hello my dears. I am sorry for how long it has been. I have no excuse. But hey, guess what! I met a writer. (Holly Black) And she signed a book for me. (Which I am currently reading.) Naturally I asked like five questions (I had more, but there wasn't enough time.) none of which I recall. I took notes and those are somewhere in my backpack probably. This was on Friday. Also on Friday i got my braces adjusted. I think that is why I keep getting massive headaches. Wait... Before we switch topics, I have a photo for y'all. That is me and Holly Black. (And her book that I am reading.) Alright, moving on. Over the weekend I mostly read. But I was happy to note that my acquaintance Austin has joined us for the morning service at church. Have I told y'all about Austin? I don't remember. He recently joined our youth group. One evening we were out playing volleyball and he was at the church playing basketball and I was like, "Who is that guy?" so Mr. Fernando invit...